I wish I could say I dont love you anymore

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Dear Absent,

It angers me that I miss you and still find myself  looking for your face in every crowd…I miss your smile and the way you made me feel, not just on the outside but on the inside as well, I felt so alive with you, so loved and understood. I never believed you would ever really leave even though you warned me from the beginning…I am having trouble forgiving you, mostly because you havent called and asked, in fact I have no idea where you really are now that I have been shown your tangled  web of lies…I pray we have more than one soulmate in this life because I know you and I were written in the stars but that I can never take you back and hold onto a shred of self respect. Sometimes I think your dead and thats why you havent called but then the memory comes crashing down like a tidal wave and I feel myself beginning to drown in the realization that you have had many opportunities.  I am sure of it  and in this world of technology even though we have both changed numbers many times, I know you would come find me if thats what you really wanted. Afterall you are my Maguyver and have found me every other time…If you come you know I would still run to you with open arms, even if against my will, but I will always doubt your love and that leaves us broken…I wish I could honestly say that I didnt love you but I am not the liar, you are…

Forever and Always,

Your Baby

A Sons Choice

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English: A roll of silver, Scotch brand duct tape.

English: A roll of silver, Scotch brand duct tape. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

My son, my pride and joy, my once precious and loving wonderful little boy, is becoming a man right before my eyes and wants to join the military, The National Guard to be exact and I am mortified…

I was in the Navy and remember how many promises were made and broken by our government to a lost litl girl in need of direction. I recall vividly how they take you and do whatever it takes to break you and bottle your spirit. I remember huge cockroaches in the showers and daily humiliation by those superior to the newbies and the homesickness that settled into my gut the moment I got off the bus. I know that he is in need of a purpose and overall direction in life and for his future and the harder that I push him to not make this choice the further away he will pull, so I have no choice but to respect and try to support his decisions as he is almost 18 but as his Mother I really wish I could duct tape him gently to a pole until he changes his mind so that I know my baby is safe. I would feel and water him of course…

He is a very smart, quick whitted young man who can be or do anything he puts his mind too and it just pisses me off that the schools welcome recruiters into their buildings to mindfuck and feed on children who think the only way they can ever go to college and fulfill their dreams is thru the militarys promises of the GI bill. They make them feel that if their parents aren’t loaded or they arent star atheletes with guaranteed scholarships,the only way to ever be able to experience the movie like college dream of parties, girls and straight A’s is to play russian roulette and sign on to be an American hero. They fail to tell them that this wonderful government of ours, if deployed, doesn’t give a shit about them individually or provide the basic essentials needed to survive and get thru your time fully intact whether it be physically or mentally. That you may have to scavage for materials to make their own armor to protect yourself from roadside bombs, rocket propelled missles and suicide attackers that come in all forms even pregnamt women and young kids looking for candy…they fail to disclose alot of these things to their recruits because if they did then no one in their right mind would ever sign on the dotted line…

All I can do at this point is pray for my son to have the wisdom needed to make an informed decision and remember that no matter where life takes my precious litl boy, God has his back! So I am going to do my best to bite my tongue and put this in the Lords hands and try not to lose my mind or my son in the process…

God Bless The USA and please keep us in your prayers as I can only handle so much before I fall and break my newly unveiled, superglued heart of glass…

Dear Childhood Friends,

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 A Letter To An Old Friend

© Taleshia K Glover

Childhood friends? I hope we still are.
Years have put space between us and now you seem so far.
Childhood promises never seem to stick.
Best friends forever is an old classic.
What would happen in the future?
We were not aware.
Who could forget that one special person that was always there?
The arms into which you fall.
The one to which you crawl.
No more playing in the back yard.
Growing up sure makes being friends hard.
From kids to teenagers we have grown so much.
I wonder how such good friends seem to loose touch.
Maybe destiny will hopeful let us meet again.
Until then this is a letter to an old friend.

My Dear Magge,

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As I Watch You Grow

Do you know how much you mean to me?
As you grow into what you will be.
You came from within, from just beneath my heart
it’s there you’ll always be though your own life will now start.
You’re growing so fast it sends me awhirl,
With misty eyes I ask, Where’s my little girl?
I know sometimes to you I seem harsh and so unfair,
But one day you will see, I taught you well because I care.
The next few years will so quickly fly,
With laughter and joy, mixed with a few tears to cry.
As you begin your growth to womanhood, this fact you must know,
You’ll always be my source of pride, no matter where you go.
You must stand up tall and proud, within you feel no fear,
For all you dreams and goals, sit before you very near.
With god’s love in your heart and the world by its tail,
You’ll always be my winner, and victory will prevail.
For you this poem was written, with help from above,
To tell you in a rhythm of your Mother’s heartfelt Love!

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Somebody Loves You! Goodnight…

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somebody is very proud of you.
-somebody is thinking of you.
-somebody is caring about you.
-somebody misses you.
-somebody wants to talk to you.
-somebody wants to be with you.
-somebody hopes you aren’t in trouble.
-somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.
-somebody wants to hold your hand.
-somebody hopes everything turns out all right.
-somebody wants you to be happy.
-somebody wants you to find him/her.
-somebody is celebrating your successes.
-somebody wants to give you a gift.
-somebody thinks that you ARE a gift.
-somebody hopes you’re not too cold, or too hot
-somebody wants to hug you.
-somebody loves you.
-somebody admires your strength.
-somebody is thinking of you and smiling.
-somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
-somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
-somebody thinks the world of you.
-somebody wants to protect you.
-somebody would do anything for you.
-somebody wants to be forgiven.
-somebody is grateful for your forgiveness.
-somebody wants to laugh with you.
-somebody remembers you and wishes that you were there.
-somebody is praising God for you.
-somebody needs to know that your love is unconditional.
-somebody values your advice.
-somebody wants to tell you how much they care.
-somebody wants to share their dreams with you.
-somebody wants to hold you in their arms.
-somebody wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
-somebody treasures your spirit.
-somebody wishes they could STOP time because of you.
-somebody praises God for your friendship and love.
-somebody can’t wait to see you.
-somebody loves you for who you are.
-somebody loves the way you make them feel.
-somebody wants to be with you.
-somebody wants you to know they are there for you.
-somebody’s glad that you’re his/her friend.
-somebody wants to be your friend.
-somebody stayed up all night thinking about you.
-somebody is alive because of you.
-somebody is wishing that you noticed him/her.
-somebody wants to get to know you better.
-somebody wants to be near you.
-somebody misses your advice/guidance.
-somebody has faith in you.
-somebody trusts you.
-somebody needs you to send them this letter
-somebody needs your support.
-somebody needs you to have faith in them.
-somebody will cry when they read this.
-somebody needs you to let them be your friend.
-somebody hears a song that reminds them of you.

 

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This has always brought me comfort in times when I have felt alone. I am so thankful for all of the people in my life and all of the memories we share and cherish, knowing that each day could be our last, no one should ever feel alone and we need to remember to tell our friends and loved ones how much they mean to us and that we are always there for them!

 

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 I am so thankful for my family! Today we went over to my sisters house to celebrate my niece/Goddaughters 19th Birthday and my daughter turns 15 on Monday. I was so tired I fell asleep right after I filled my belly with chili because I started my new job today and was up at 3am…when I got home I threw up and had to lay back down but all I could think about was all the love in that house and how fast children grow up, afterall it seems like just yesterday when I myself was turning 15 and at 19 was pregnant with my now 17 year old son. I thank God for my family, my sobriety, and for the love that surrounds us each day as we go our separate ways!

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 If you have food in the refrigerator, clothes on your back,

a roof overhead and a place to sleep… you are richer than
75% of this world.

f you have money in the bank, in your wallet, and spare
change in a dish someplace… you are among the top 8% of
the world’s wealthy.

If you woke up this morning with more health than
illness… you are more blessed than the million who will
not survive this week.

If you have never experienced the danger of battle, the
loneliness of imprisonment, the agony of torture, or the
pangs of starvation… you are ahead of 500 million people
in the world.

If you can attend a church meeting without fear of
harassment, arrest, torture, or death… you are more
blessed than three billion people in the world.

If your parents are still alive and still married… you
are very rare, even in the United States.

If you hold up your head with a smile on your face and are
truly thankful… you are blessed because the majority can,
but most do not.

If you can hold someone’s hand, hug them or even touch them
on the shoulder… you are blessed because you can offer
healing touch.

If you can read this message, you just received a double
blessing in that someone was thinking of you, and
furthermore, you are more blessed than over two billion
people in the world that cannot read at all.

Have a good day, COUNT YOUR BLESSINGS, and
pass this along to remind everyone else how blessed we all are.

 

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Happy Birthday Girls!

Which are you? A Reason, a season or a lifetime…

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People always come into your life for a reason, a season and a lifetime.

When you figure out which it is, you know exactly what to do.

When someone is in your life for a REASON, it is usually to meet a need you have expressed outwardly or inwardly.

They have come to assist you through a difficulty, or to provide you with guidance and support, to aid you physically, emotionally, or even spiritually.

They may seem like a godsend to you, and they are. They are there for a reason,you need them to be.

Then, without any wrong doing on your part or at an inconvenient time, this person will say or do something to bring the relationship to an end.

Sometimes they die, Sometimes they just walk away. Sometimes they act up or out and force you to take a stand.

What we must realize is that our need has been met, our desire fulfilleed; their work is done. The prayer you sent up has been answered and it is now time to move on.

When people come into your life for a SEASON, it is because your turn has come to share, grow, or learn.

They may bring you an experience of peace or make you laugh. They may teach you something you have never done.

They usually give you an unbelievable amount of joy. Believe it! It is real! But, only for a season. And like Spring turns to Summer and Summer to Fall, the season eventually ends.

LIFETIME, relationships teach you a lifetime of lessons; those things you must build upon in order to have a solid emotional foundation.

Your job is to accept the lesson, love the person/people (anyway);, and put what you have learned to use in all other relationships and areas in your life. It is said that love is blind but friendship is clairvoyant. Thank you for being part of my life…..

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I am Thankful

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I am thankful…For the teenager who is complaining about doing dishes
because that means she is at home & not on the streets.

For the taxes that I pay, because it means that I am employed.

For the mess to clean after a party, because it means
that I have been surrounded by friends.

For the clothes that fit a little too snug, because it
means I have enough to eat.

For my shadow that watches me work, because
it means I am out in the sunshine.

For a lawn that needs mowing, windows that need cleaning,
and gutters that need fixing, because it means I have a home.

For all the complaining I hear about the government,
because it means that we have freedom of speech.

For the parking spot I find at the far end of the parking lot,
because it means I am capable of walking and that I have
been blessed with transportation.


For my huge heating bill, because it means I am warm.

For the lady behind me in church that sings off key,
because it means that I can hear.

For the pile of laundry and ironing, because it
means I have clothes to wear.

For weariness and aching muscles at the end of the day,
because it means I have been capable of working hard.

For the alarm that goes off in the early morning hours,
because it means that I am alive.

And finally…….for too much e-mail, because it means
I have friends who are thinking of me.

 

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It Is Good To Be A Woman

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WOMEN……

 

They fight for what they believe in.

They stand up against injustice.

They don’t take “no” for an answer when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without new shoes so their children can have them.

They go to the doctor with a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about a birth or a new marriage.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They have sorrow at the loss of a family member, yet they are strong when they think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all SIZES, in all colors and shapes.

They’ll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what makes the world spin!

Women do more than just give birth.

They bring joy and hope.

They give compassion and ideals.

They give moral support to their family and friends.

Women have a lot to say and a lot to give.


FURTHERMORE…

We got off the Titanic first.

We can scare male bosses with mysterious gynecological disorder excuses.

Taxis stop for us.

We don’t look like a frog in a blender when dancing.

No fashion faux pas we make could ever rival The Speedo.

We don’t have to pass gas to amuse ourselves.

If we forget to shave, no one has to know.

We can congratulate our teammate without ever touching her rear.

We never have to reach down every so often to make sure our privates are still there.

We have the ability to dress ourselves.

We can talk to people of the opposite sex without having to picture them naked.

If we marry someone 20 years younger, we’re aware that we look like a complete idiot.

There are times when chocolate really can solve all your problems.

We’ll never regret piercing our ears.

We can fully assess a person just by looking at their shoes.

We can make comments about how silly men are in their presence, because they aren’t listening anyway.

 

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