Monthly Archives: October 2012

I wish I could say I dont love you anymore

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Dear Absent,

It angers me that I miss you and still find myself  looking for your face in every crowd…I miss your smile and the way you made me feel, not just on the outside but on the inside as well, I felt so alive with you, so loved and understood. I never believed you would ever really leave even though you warned me from the beginning…I am having trouble forgiving you, mostly because you havent called and asked, in fact I have no idea where you really are now that I have been shown your tangled  web of lies…I pray we have more than one soulmate in this life because I know you and I were written in the stars but that I can never take you back and hold onto a shred of self respect. Sometimes I think your dead and thats why you havent called but then the memory comes crashing down like a tidal wave and I feel myself beginning to drown in the realization that you have had many opportunities.  I am sure of it  and in this world of technology even though we have both changed numbers many times, I know you would come find me if thats what you really wanted. Afterall you are my Maguyver and have found me every other time…If you come you know I would still run to you with open arms, even if against my will, but I will always doubt your love and that leaves us broken…I wish I could honestly say that I didnt love you but I am not the liar, you are…

Forever and Always,

Your Baby

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