Tag Archives: Depression

Somebody Loves You! Goodnight…

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somebody is very proud of you.
-somebody is thinking of you.
-somebody is caring about you.
-somebody misses you.
-somebody wants to talk to you.
-somebody wants to be with you.
-somebody hopes you aren’t in trouble.
-somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.
-somebody wants to hold your hand.
-somebody hopes everything turns out all right.
-somebody wants you to be happy.
-somebody wants you to find him/her.
-somebody is celebrating your successes.
-somebody wants to give you a gift.
-somebody thinks that you ARE a gift.
-somebody hopes you’re not too cold, or too hot
-somebody wants to hug you.
-somebody loves you.
-somebody admires your strength.
-somebody is thinking of you and smiling.
-somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
-somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
-somebody thinks the world of you.
-somebody wants to protect you.
-somebody would do anything for you.
-somebody wants to be forgiven.
-somebody is grateful for your forgiveness.
-somebody wants to laugh with you.
-somebody remembers you and wishes that you were there.
-somebody is praising God for you.
-somebody needs to know that your love is unconditional.
-somebody values your advice.
-somebody wants to tell you how much they care.
-somebody wants to share their dreams with you.
-somebody wants to hold you in their arms.
-somebody wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
-somebody treasures your spirit.
-somebody wishes they could STOP time because of you.
-somebody praises God for your friendship and love.
-somebody can’t wait to see you.
-somebody loves you for who you are.
-somebody loves the way you make them feel.
-somebody wants to be with you.
-somebody wants you to know they are there for you.
-somebody’s glad that you’re his/her friend.
-somebody wants to be your friend.
-somebody stayed up all night thinking about you.
-somebody is alive because of you.
-somebody is wishing that you noticed him/her.
-somebody wants to get to know you better.
-somebody wants to be near you.
-somebody misses your advice/guidance.
-somebody has faith in you.
-somebody trusts you.
-somebody needs you to send them this letter
-somebody needs your support.
-somebody needs you to have faith in them.
-somebody will cry when they read this.
-somebody needs you to let them be your friend.
-somebody hears a song that reminds them of you.

 

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This has always brought me comfort in times when I have felt alone. I am so thankful for all of the people in my life and all of the memories we share and cherish, knowing that each day could be our last, no one should ever feel alone and we need to remember to tell our friends and loved ones how much they mean to us and that we are always there for them!

 

Seeking You

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The moment I heard my first love story I began seeking you,
not realizing the search was useless.
Lovers don’t meet somewhere along the way.
They’re in one another’s souls from the beginning.

Rumi
(1207-1273)

An Indian Prayer

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My Grandfather is the FireMy Grandmother is the Wind

The Earth is my Mother

The Great Spirit is my Father

The World stopped at my birth and laid itself at my feet

And I shall swallow the Earth whole when I die,
and the Earth and I will be one.

Hail The Great Spirit, my Father, without him no one
could exist because there would be no will to live.

Hail The Earth, my Mother, without which no food
could be grown and so cause the will to live to starve.
Hail the wind, my Grandmother, for she brings loving,
life-giving rain nourishing us as she nourishes our crops.
Hail the fire, my Grandfather, for the light, the warmth,
the comfort he brings without which we be animals, not men.

Hail my parent and grandparents without which,
not I, nor you, nor anyone else could have existed.

Life gives life which gives unto itself a promise of new life.

Hail the Great Spirit, The Earth, the Wind, the Fire
praise my parents loudly for they are your parents, too.

Oh, Great Spirit, giver of my life please accept this
humble offering of prayer, this offering of praise,
this honest reverence of my love for you.

God Given Tools of Survival

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Do you ever feel a desperate need to crawl into bed and sleep the day away, even when you havent missed a dose of your anti-depressants, which many Americans are put on by their doctors instead of ever fixing the underlying problem instead… I have noticed that our bodies are very resilient and more in control of ‘the human condition’ than we are aware of, Sleep brings us a sort of peace that is sometimes impossible to find while awake  with a mind thats racing and hearts breaking into a million pieces, just like the numbness that sets in after a trauma, we as humans have a way of subconsciously taking care of ourselves even when on the outside it feels as if we have no idea what the hell we are supposed to be doing! So I say if you need to nap once in awhile to quietly process what life throws your way, grab your wubby, close your eyes and thank God for the built in tools he gave us, to survive this journey and make it thru another day!

Duck n weave, dodge that other shoe!

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“Everything is so superb and breathtaking. I am creeping forward on my belly like they do in war movies.”
-Diane Arbus

Do you ever feel like things are going so well for you that you’re sitting around waiting for the other shoe to drop? That is how I am feeling this week and its bittersweet. I have spent the last decade walking around with a hole in my heart the size of the Grand Canyon on a path of self destruction. I was stuck in a cycle of grief and unconsciously feeling guilty for being alive and getting thru each day just to get to the next and the next and the next until I was finally allowed to die and be reunited with my Mother and Brother who passed away four months apart from one another in 2000 and my best friends. I strongly believe that suicide is a very selfish act and could never leave that legacy or cause my loved ones the same pain that had been torturing me for so long. I will divuldge more in posts to come but long story short I recently had what in rehab they call a ‘spiritual awakening’ and it was so intense that it could not be denied! God reached down from heaven and bitch slapped me so hard that after a twelve year temper tantrum, I hit my knees and spoke to the God of my childhood whom I had turned my back on like a hurt and angry child who didn’t get her way. As I prayed and wept, asking for forgiveness, that hole in my heart began to shrink and I was filled with the peace, comfort and love that I had felt as a small child and the healing began! Prior to this I had become so depressed that I could not even get off the couch and was unable to see my future past the kids graduating and moving out. I lost my passion for life, forgot who I was and didnt feel worthy of even loving myself (in spite of many anti depressants) and I realized that I had never been left alone! Then after forgiving myself for being so selfish and missing out on alot of happy memories as my babies literally grew up before my eyes and my marriage failed, I knew what I had to do and God removed his hand from my eyes so that I could see the path laid out before me. This change in me, this peaceful joy that has filled my heart and soul is amazingly powerful and frightening at the same time. Its like waiting for the other shoe to drop and having to just trust that the light that I now can see at the end of this tunnel is not a train…